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Curious, how much do you all relate -- people seem under the impression that because I give off a sweet, soft, ethereal demeanor, that I go with the flow in anything they want to do, and that I will be moldable to what they put forward as the best goals/dreams for me. On the freaking contrary, I absolutely have to indulge the whims and currents of my world, and in the larger view, I am on my own path in a way that most people may never understand.
See, I'm not concsiously self-directed... which ultimately, actually, makes me the most self-directed of 'em all...
And when you try to fuck with that, I waver and ripple and get all pissed off 'cause I'm about to show my tears to you, and you probably won't be able to handle it.
I'M the one indulging YOU, in your little illusions and ideas, bubbles which I cannot in principle possibly burst for you, even though I want to, really really bad; cuz I love all my varied illusions too, it's a fun game, and above all I would not rob you of your own Experience. World is mystery. Law of Silence prevails.
I let it unfold.
AND THEN, since I've probably lived (they say, i.e. it's the vicious rumor) about like a zillion times before, I've got all this essential info about existence coming at me, the center of me ready to runneth over -- and my outer humility hilariously betrays the fact that I already got your answer, had it before you even asked the question. Ya might classify that as arrogance, and ya might be right,... but too -- how often have we found our arrogance *justified*? [ That's one of the shadow secrets of Pisces -- deep down we damn well KNOW our value, our importance. Hence the great thrashing storms. ] But when you're first meeting someone, you're not supposed to already know them intimately. You're not supposed to get down to the marrow.
I think great humility swirled with great arrogance probably scares some people off, doesn't it? My sources say Yes.
This isn't a new experience for the water kin, I trust, but... simply had to vent!!!
N.
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Curious, how much do you all relate -- people seem under the impression that because I give off a sweet, soft, ethereal demeanor, that I go with the flow in anything they want to do, and that I will be moldable to what they put forward as the best goals/dreams for me. On the freaking contrary, I absolutely have to indulge the whims and currents of my world, and in the larger view, I am on my own path in a way that most people may never understand.
See, I'm not concsiously self-directed... which ultimately, actually, makes me the most self-directed of 'em all...
And when you try to fuck with that, I waver and ripple and get all pissed off 'cause I'm about to show my tears to you, and you probably won't be able to handle it.
I'M the one indulging YOU, in your little illusions and ideas, bubbles which I cannot in principle possibly burst for you, even though I want to, really really bad; cuz I love all my varied illusions too, it's a fun game, and above all I would not rob you of your own Experience. World is mystery. Law of Silence prevails.
I let it unfold.
AND THEN, since I've probably lived (they say, i.e. it's the vicious rumor) about like a zillion times before, I've got all this essential info about existence coming at me, the center of me ready to runneth over -- and my outer humility hilariously betrays the fact that I already got your answer, had it before you even asked the question. Ya might classify that as arrogance, and ya might be right,... but too -- how often have we found our arrogance *justified*? [ That's one of the shadow secrets of Pisces -- deep down we damn well KNOW our value, our importance. Hence the great thrashing storms. ] But when you're first meeting someone, you're not supposed to already know them intimately. You're not supposed to get down to the marrow.
I think great humility swirled with great arrogance probably scares some people off, doesn't it? My sources say Yes.
This isn't a new experience for the water kin, I trust, but... simply had to vent!!!
N.
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